Moment for life

I know it has been awhile since I have posted and I apologize. This prep hasn't been the easiest mentally for me, I have been dealing with a lot. Recently my whole mentality has changed, and it took one incident to do it for me. Its crazy to think how much the mental side of this sport has control over everything. I have been in a mindf*** for quite some time now, and I have finally come out of it....and I only wish it could have came sooner. I am more intune with my body, and I have learned how to over power my physical strength with my mental strength. My coach has always told me how you can do SO much more physically when your mind takes over. I am finishing every exercise with an extra rep, and I will be taking this show....I am so hungry for Border States its kinda ridiculous. As much as people say they hate prepping for a show because of how exhausted we become, I want to keep this moment for life. Seeing how strong my mind is and how it can over power my physical ability when I am exhausted is amazing to me. When my body tells me I can't go any farther or I can't do one more rep, I tell myself I can and push out two more. I love the feeling and the drive that I have found deep down inside. I will not let anyone take away from my goals, dreams, or wants....I want this and let me tell you I will have this! I have let so many people interfere with this prep and take my mental side out of this....and now that its back, I am coming in 10 times stronger both mentally and physically! I am a new Kayla and I am loving this. I am less than 5 weeks out from my show, and as hard as it may be physically I am mentally my strongest. Its crazy to see when your mind is in this and you are stress free how much your body can change. I have noticed a huge change in my moods, body, and workouts since I have cleared my head and the only thing I see is border states. I can't wait to be out on that stage with my girls and show all of you what I have accomplished.