Food porn and exhaustion

Things have definately changed recently....the weak, exhausted Kay has come out and I still have 6 1/2 weeks till show time. I feel weak and tired all the time, but this is the best time of a prep...when youre exhausted and your body tells you it can't take any more or it can't do something and your mind has to take over to push you through your cardio session or workout. This is where you find out what you are truely made of, and to show exactly how bad you want this. I must give a huge shout out to my workout partner, because on days I feel beaten down and weak as all hell, she pulls my extremely sore butt off the couch and tells me to get to work. I can def see changes every week, and my body slowly shedding off layer by layer, I am just wishing it would come off FASTER!! This prep is a whole new experience for me and I am learning so much from it...and I am so greatful for those people who have put up with me through all of this. I have had a lot of issues appear throughout this prep and it has affected me a lot, but one thing I have learned is that no matter what comes up I am in full control of my prep and my body. Nothing is going to pull me away from this goal and my desire to be where I want to be come show time.

So I have to tell you about some dreams I have been having lately....hopefully most of you know the term food porn LOL. All my dreams now consist of FOOD!!! I have had a reaccuring dream, and every time I wake from this dream I am in a panic thinking it really happened. This dream is kind of like Willy Wonka and the Chocolate factory.....I start eating EVERYTHING in sight...I have even made up my own flavor of pringles in this dream....Mexican flavor...every chip is a different piece of mexican food. I just cant stop eating....I wake up freaking out that I ruined my whole prep, but luckily its just a dream. The other night I had a dream that I was camping inside of Costco (dont ask why lol) but I had two kids with me and my meals of fish....well I was fighting with these two kids because they kept eating my precious fish! LOL I was chatting with some friends about these dreams...and I am sure all of you know about the dessert gum that all of us in prep mode eat like theres no tomorrow....well while we were talking I was thinking, they should make pizza or taco flavored gum....or just food flavored gum. I think that would help me out so much lol. Hopefully Im not the only one with crazy dreams and desires of eating food!